To Trust Or Not To Trust? That Is The Epic Question.

Reliance on the integrity of my soul
Yet it feels blacker and toxic as a coal.
Endowed with strength, ability and confidence
Yet they remain anonymous.

The expectations or hope
At times become my rope.
Dangling, calling my name
Trying to extinguish my flame.

Trust brought all of this to me
Or perhaps it was just me.
Uncertainty fills every crevice of my thoughts
Knots, knots, unclear knots.

I relied on you to be next to me when the evil haze came
That was not your aim.
New frame, new claim, did I blame?
Don’t want to trust anymore, but maybe if I do, it will not be the same.

Perhaps that has become my deeper issue
And the WHY I use a tissue.
Must believe again
Must master my brain.

7 thoughts on “To Trust Or Not To Trust? That Is The Epic Question.

  1. πŸ˜ͺi do relate. Unfortunate we must travel dark roads or sit in wait for the clouds to pass. Some days are highs and the fog lifts, you wrangle the rope to behave and then you fall into a pit and let the rope try to drag you out. Your words hit a spot in my mind and heart. I believe my soul is always preserved for the day I am completely healed. πŸ˜ŽπŸ‘πŸ»

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      1. I am. Thank you for the kind words and thoughts. Thank you for allowing the expression of what i have learned about myself and why i am as i am. I accept my life. Days to struggle. Days to rejoice. Days to feel an overcomer. Days to wait out the dark. Days and nights. It also brings thoughts to write…a muse to inspire. πŸ˜„πŸ‘πŸ»

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  2. Yourself is the only one you can really trust I think. It’s learning to listen to yourself that’s the hard part. And you know what, even if people find you’re crazy, let them…mostly they are jealous πŸ˜‰
    XxX

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