Reliance on the integrity of my soul
Yet it feels blacker and toxic as a coal.
Endowed with strength, ability and confidence
Yet they remain anonymous.
The expectations or hope
At times become my rope.
Dangling, calling my name
Trying to extinguish my flame.
Trust brought all of this to me
Or perhaps it was just me.
Uncertainty fills every crevice of my thoughts
Knots, knots, unclear knots.
I relied on you to be next to me when the evil haze came
That was not your aim.
New frame, new claim, did I blame?
Don’t want to trust anymore, but maybe if I do, it will not be the same.
Perhaps that has become my deeper issue
And the WHY I use a tissue.
Must believe again
Must master my brain.