Every fiber of my being was in a trance
Such a dark romance.
Nothing was left
Everything flowed endlessly through the river without any rest.
The seeds of time are still planted deep in my mind
If this is how it feels to see, I rather be blind.
All the memories of those cold winter days
That you and I hold hands
Continue coming alive at night
My heart still feels the bite.
I wish I could sleep through my inner screams of change
Or at least make some kind of exchange.
I want the bleeding scars to be erased
Or at least to be chased.
I want to forget about you in so many ways
I just want a new start and push the rest far away.
My expectations are unreal, this I know
But I am just tired of feeling so low.
Copyright © 2016 Manuel Osornio-emotionsoflife2016
En Español:
Cada fibra de mi ser estaba en trance
Tal oscuro romance.
No se dejó nada
Todo fluía sin cesar a través del río sin ningún descanso.
Las semillas del tiempo todavía se plantan profundamente en mi mente
Si esto es lo que se siente al ver, yo preferiría estar ciego.
Todos los recuerdos de esos días fríos de invierno
Que tu y yo toman de la mano
Continuar viniendo vida en la noche
Mi corazón todavía se siente la mordedura.
Me gustaría poder dormir a través de mis gritos interiores del cambio
O al menos hacer algún tipo de intercambio.
Quiero que las cicatrices de sangrado que desee borrar
O por lo menos ser perseguido.
Quiero olvidarme de ti de muchas maneras
Sólo quiero un nuevo comienzo y empuje el resto lejos.
Mis expectativas son irreales, esto lo sé
Pero estoy cansado de sentirse tan baja.
Copyright © 2016 Manuel Osornio-emotionsoflife2016
This is beautifully written! Such profound thoughts…and the pain is so deep I can feel it eat my heart away.
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Thank you for thw comment. I am so glad you can feel the deep pain that I have.
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Thank you so much for the kind words
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Lok it is all good
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I can feel the angst and desire strongly through your piece. I love the line about the seeds of your time are planted in my mind. That line there is so profound on so many levels. I shall go and ponder that for a while.
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I am so glad you liked it. So much gratitude
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“Tired” certainly captures the emotional sadness attached to the ending of a relationship, as well as the turmoil and upheaval that goes along with it. Many wonderful lines, especially, “I want the bleeding scars to be erased”. I often wonder if the angst that we experience is part of the plan. Well penned Manuel. ~ Mia
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Thank you so much for your amazing comment. I often wonder that as well
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You’re most welcome.
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I love how you began this piece with ‘I wanna live not just survive’
I too am tired of surviving and not living
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I am glad ylike that line for it is my favorite as well. Thank you ao much for the continues support
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